I have said this before on my blog - I was a really good dieter. I would diet and work out and lose 20 lbs and then hit a plateau and quit. Back on came the 20, plus 5 for punishment. I have lived the last 20 years of my life like that, in these yo-yo cycles. I have been "good" now for 65 days. That's a record. Last night, we went out to eat with the kids and I ordered chicken parm with no pasta. I ate the little salad that came first. I ate about 3 ounces of the chicken. I was full. I was done. But I wanted to eat more - I didn't need more. But I wanted to eat more. But guess what? I couldn't. I physically could not do it. Can I get a THANK YOU BAND??? As I settle in to this commitment I made, I have these daily realizations about how unhealthy I lived my life before. I would have eaten the 1000 calorie dinner placed in front of me - without even giving it a second thought. This decision is out of my control right now though, and that feels pretty good. I read posts by the pre- or newly-banded about how they afraid that they won't be able to eat the things they love anymore - and the reality is that it becomes a non-issue and I am seeing that now. Someone online referred to her new stomach as expensive real estate - and that is really what it is. I have very little room to be messing around. And not messing around is going to get me to my goal...
ONE POUND UNTIL 30 LBS LOST!!! COME ON BABY!!!
Thanks for the great insights that are helpful to me as I get closer to being banded next month. The "absentmindedness" that comes with overeating is an issue that resonates, I'm sure, with most of us on this journey. Thanks for your honesty...wishing you your first 30 plus many more!
ReplyDeleteOh, thank you for letting me know these things! I truly love and learn from reading your blog! Although it is hard for me to imagine feeling that "full" feeling and not being able to still eat - I'm going to take your word for it! You haven't let me down yet!!
ReplyDeleteC'mon one pound!!
Thanks again!
Lisa
(Mrs. C)