Being fat in the summer sucks. I remember. Just last summer, I clocked in at 286 lbs. I was one month pre-op. I was miserable. I was hot, sweaty, my thighs rubbed together. I never wanted to go outside or do anything. I hated going to the pool and got hives at the thought of a bathing suit. I couldn't wear make up because I would for certain sweat it off. It was not pretty.
This year could not be any more different. I am comfortable. I don't sweat. I go places with my children. I wear a bathing suit at the pool!! I wear cute sun dresses, skirts and even short shorts (I know, it's my mid life crisis). I am no longer a hater of the fat summer. I bare skin. I am free.
These are the ideas that passed through my head as I got dressed in my jean shorts and tank top today. I am comfortable. I am not constantly dreading exposure or discomfort. I can be me. Love it.
Cheers to my first non-fat summer in over 22 years!
So proud of you! Such an inspiration. Cannot wait to feel the same way next summer. Though in honesty after 39 lbs I'm already feeling different.
ReplyDeleteThank you, thank you for giving me inspiration and a reminder that this journey is going to be worth it. I am so happy for you.
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