Omg....

I saw the 140s this morning... OMG....

How?  Why?  Holy cow.  I am just living my life....doing my thing.  I love my lap band ;)

This time of year would normally be one during which I would pack on the pounds.  The gym is less visited.  Dinners out are more frequent.  Cookies.  Celebrations.  But my lap band is here and present - and keeping me in check.  I look at the cookies.  I even think maybe I would try it.  But why?  I will see the cookie again and it ain't pretty.

17 months have passed since I was given this gift.  17 months and 137 pounds gone.  2011 has been one of the most challenging years of my life and I could not comfort myself with food - and I was forced to show up emotionally and do the work, not hide in a bag of chips.  Sure, I post pictures of myself and I revel in my size six jeans, but the most amazing transformation has been internal - something no one else really can see.  All of my padding is gone and Molly had to show up.  And she has shown up.  And the journey is not over...