Friday, January 20, 2012

Friday Weigh In - and the Unfill

Hiya - happy Friday!

Lowest recorded weight today:  147 lbs  (that's 139 lbs lost)

Got my .15 cc unfill yesterday.  Dr. Fielding agreed that it was time to slow down the wagon.  I told him I was extremely nervous and he said that it was right to be nervous - that we had to find a good balance.  I have been losing about .5 to 1 pound per month and that really has to stop.  But he wants to make sure I don't get hungry - so the game begins.  I go back in 5 weeks.  The .15 was the undo of my last fill - one year ago.  PLEASE don't let me gain weight.  I have to tell myself that anything between 146 and 150 is FINE.  And be FINE with that.  It is so incredibly hard to shake the LOSER mind set.  I must lose.  I must lose.  God, I have had that mindset for more than two decades. 

Here's a pic from my Saturday night date in NYC with my husband.  Have a great weekend!

3 comments:

  1. You look so beautiful! I too wonder how it will be to change the mindset once I get to goal. Keep us posted on how it goes...

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