Monday, March 28, 2011

Gain??????

In my efforts to own it, this is the first week in 8 months that I have gained weight... I weigh 200.6 lbs.  Yes, I have my period.  But come on now.....I want to be in onederland so badly.... so frustrated.

Positive note of the day:  I ran 3.13 miles in 35 minutes.  This is the 5k distance goal I had.  Now I have to be able to do it outside...but it's still too cold.  Maybe next week...

Negative note of the day:  I don't think I am eating enough.  Burned 565 calories at the gym.  Tracked all my intake and ate 732 calories.  That cannot be good.  I think I need an unfill... or maybe a protein shake right now....

Weird observation of the day:  A woman came up to me at the gym and she told me that I was shrinking in front of her eyes and that she was working so hard at Weight Watchers and had only lost 2 lbs in 3 weeks and she wanted to know what I was doing.  There was a piece of me that wanted to say "I only eat protein, no carbs and I work out every day" but then I felt bad.  Why should I make this woman feel like she would ever have the success I have had doing a traditional diet?  I sure as hell never did.  Thousands and thousands of my dollars went to Weight Watchers over the years, and I never ever lost and kept off anything.  So I had to tell her... it's my usual... "I have had a little help in the form of a lap band."  Oh really?  So what do you eat?  So I gave her my original line, "Protein, no carbs and lots of exercise."  She had no idea what a lap band was, but hey, at least I was honest ;)  I then contemplated this discussion while I ran.  I mean, what is a lap band other than a reminder?  It's a full time reminder that I shouldn't keep eating and I shouldn't eat crap.  My reminder doesn't go away.  It doesn't take time off.  It's like the will power I never had, 24/7.  But reminder or no reminder, we have to do the work.  And I need to remember this and give myself credit.  So should you ;)

1 comment:

  1. I am dying over here!! This is the first week that I have "gained" too! I know that it is water retention. I know it has to be. But come on people! Last week I was 9 lbs from wonder land. Now I am 10.6

    I wonder of I will tell people honestly that I've had LB. There are a few people that I've wanted to..to help them. But I have just stayed silent.

    I tried sushi last night. My husband was using his christmas gift from someone. He did a great job and he even made some really light on the rice ones. I wasn't able to eat much and I could tell the heavier rice ones were a little hard to swallow.

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