CAN I GET A WHOOOO HOOOO!

Eighty....80....eight zero....80 FREAKING POUNDS GONE from my body forever.  I had my surgery 227 days ago - or seven months and 12 days ago.  That's an average of 2.31 pounds per week or, get this, 0.35 pounds per day.  WHEN WOULD THAT EVER HAVE BEEN POSSIBLE BEFORE?!?!?!?  I love my band.  I love my decision.  I love where I am and where I am headed. 

Got a little 0.15 cc bump today....looking straight down the 6 pound barrel to ONEDERLAND.... bring it on.  I am ready.  I am more than ready.  To meet my goal, I have to weight 199 pounds by March 27.  That is 17 days from now...can I lose 7 pounds in 17 days?  Thanks to my bump today, I HOPE SO. 

Who's portion is that portion size?

Ok, I have resolved to track for 3 days starting tomorrow.  My weight loss has been slow for the last 3 weeks and I feel like I need to figure out what is up.  Have a doc appt on Thursday so I thought I would track this week and go see the nutritionist when I am there.

The thing is...I almost never eat as much as I plan to eat.  I definitely could not eat a whole lean cuisine or smart ones meal.  So then I need to try to figure out what part of a serving I actually consumed.  Was that 3/4 or 2/3?  AND, when something comes back up, how exactly does one calculate for that?  I bought a whole bunch of new protein things...tofu, beans, different stuff to try this week.  I thought Weight Watchers was time consuming....I can't wait for the next 3 days.  .66 of a serving of this, .2345667 of a serving of that.  4 navy beans, 16 peas, you get my point?  What fun.  Can you tell I am a little hostile?

Shedding the weight...

I'm scared.... practically every piece of clothing I own is outside in my garage.  And I am following my therapist's orders and putting out even the things that fit me last month.  And that, my friends, feels crazy.  For a life time yo-yo dieter, why would you get rid of the next size up?  You keep that right?  But my doc says NO - you get rid of it.  You accept where you are and where you are going.  You don't build safety nets.  You charge forward and embrace your future. 

After tomorrow, the only piece of plus sized clothing I will own is a dress jacket, size 14, that I want to keep until I see some sun and feel some warmth.  I am totally freaking out....

Does it get harder?

Tell me....does it get harder?  As you get closer to goal?  Does that rate at which you lose weight change?  I mean really.  I could probably work out harder, ok, not harder - but longer.  I could not possibly eat less.  I could eat more... or different things.  But I don't want to....I don't want to start down that same old path of obsessing and worrying and calculating and journaling and measuring and... blbbhd;hasdfjaksdjf;laksjdf;.  You know?  I don't want to.  I am being a baby.  But for an obsessed control freak, these last 7 months have been heavenly.... workout, eat a little, lose weight.  This month has sucked and I want onederland so badly I can taste it.  March 26th was my original goal for onederland...can it possibly be done at this point?

It's On!

My shrink will be so pleased.... I, on the other hand, am slightly nervous....  all of my stuff is leaving on Sunday.  All of my years and years of clothes.... I told the shrink I didn't care, but I think I unknowingly lied.  I am scared.