Come on 50!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah yeah...I'm still here. Plugging away....might be near my sweet spot... weight is just coming off. Go for a fill tomorrow - but do I need one if I have lost 14-15lbs in the last month? I wish I could explain really how it feels to really really be losing weight. Not the yo-yo stuff - but really be getting smaller every day. I will probably be in the 230s tomorrow morning - from 286!!!! 50 lbs is just around the corner.... OMG.

I just read a post online about feeling bulimic. I definitely feel bulimic. When things get stuck, I just don't have the restraint to wait it out. I want it gone. So this means that I have days where I can't keep down anything I eat. But then I have a stretch like I have had this week where everything is fine (I probably need a fill). The fewer distractions I have, the better I do. If the phone rings, maybe I swallow before I have chewed enough. If people are talking to me, maybe I lose the concentration it takes to chew food to liquid... I am figuring it out and I have to say, this is the best decision I ever made ;)