TMI (don't read if you don't want to know)

Okay then.... got a little bump about 10 days ago. I was tight before and now I am, logically, even tighter. I was the girl who swore she would never PB. That goal is gone. I actually feel a little bulimic. Not by choice, just by circumstance. I cannot stand the sliming and the pain associated with having something stuck. I don't have sufficient patience. So I often lose the first couple of bites I take of something. Pretty gross - but I am working on it. I know I need to focus and take my time. I have had some successful meals - but mostly, I need a lot of time to eat. So much time that things get cold. So much time that sometimes I stop and go switch the laundry in the middle of a meal. I'm weird. Everyone around here is learning to accept it. I am struggling to get in 65 or 70 grams of protein though. I eat so little and think about food so infrequently, that I have to force myself to keep track. Protein shakes are my staple - I use them to catch up if I have fallen behind. Really truly, it is simply amazing how little I eat. Today, I have had a protein shake (25 grams of protein, 165 calories), a tiny can of tuna with mayo (200 calories and 18 grams of protein), 3 ounces of salmon (175 calories and 19 grams of protein) and a small piece of avocado (45 calories) and some coffee and water. That means 585 calories and 62 grams of protein. I am full and I will have to force in another protein shake just to feel like I had a sufficient intake. THIS BAND THING IS CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean seriously.... I have reduced my daily calorie intake by about 3000 calories. Although this week, I think I am too low and that's why I only lost 1.8 lbs instead of the 3 per week that I had been losing. But I have my next goal in sight - to have lost 60 lbs - only 8 lbs to go!

I have reread some of my earlier posts and it is so funny how much I have changed and how much my experience with the band has changed. I love it still - but my life is so different and it no longer revolves around food. I wish I could have done this myself but there would have been NO WAY IN THE WORLD that would have happened. Thank you Doctor Fielding for keeping your promise.