On the bright side, I looked like this eight months ago this morning:
I feel like may be I am too tight. Eating is a tedious chore and I have found myself opting to NOT eat just to avoid the hassle. My fill nurse always tells me to watch the inclination to stay liquid and I have to fight it every day. My band gets so tight when I have my period that I struggle to even drink coffee or tea. I read the discussion boards about people who lose 100 lbs and never get a fill and I wonder if I am needlessly torturing myself. I go back in two weeks and I wonder if it wouldn't be smart to have them pull a half cc from the band just to see how I feel. Should I pay attention to the fact that some people lose without fills? Or with just one fill? Should I be concerned that the majority of my weight loss to date comes post-fill? Will I ever get to goal???
As you can see, I am having a bad day. It happens. I hate hormones. I hate the fact that the more weight I lose, the shorter my cycle. I am now down to a 22 day menstrual cycle - do the math, that means I have had my period twice in March. It sucks. And onederland is .1 lbs away... just outside my grasp.
8 months and look how great you look!
ReplyDeleteI want to say this. Your band journey is yours alone. Don't compare fills of others to what is working for you. I am not suggesting you feel miserable and force your self to feel uncomfortable..but don't compare.
Having said that I am pms-ing. I've lost nothing this week. There has not been one week since my first fill that I have lost nothing. Yesterday I could eat the world and it felt like I did and today I can eat nothing. Well I ate some tuna at lunch and that was okay but that has been it today! Even now I am stuck on a bite of the pork I am making for dinner! That doesn't bode well for dinner.
I hope i am dealing with hormones or I will be pissed at myself even more.
Onderland will be here so very soon. Be proud! You've rocked this band exactly how you are supposed to, lady!
You are doing an awesome job. I would suggest you do not compare your journey to that of others. It is easier said than done. Look how far you have come. Tthere are some people who will never achieve what you have. Keep up the good work.
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